reading this made me cry because it reminds me of everything he was and everything you aren't.
some of de sweet things shared for guys to pick up n learn..
1-touch her waist
2-talk to her
3-share secrets
4-give her your jacket
5-kiss her slowly
6-hug her
7-hold her
8-laugh with her,not at her
9-invite her somewhere
10-let her be with you when you're with your friends
11-smile with her
12-take pics with her
13-pull her onto your lap
14-when she says she loves you more, deny it. fight back
15-when her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back andhug her tight so she cant get to her friends. it makes her feel loved
16-always hug her and say "i love you" when you see her
17-kiss her unexpectedly
18-hug her from behind around her waist
19-tell her shes beautiful!
20-tell her the way you feel about her!
21-Open doors for her, walk her to her car- it makes her feel protected, plusit never hurt to act like a gentleman
22-Tell her she means everything toyou, but mean it
23-if it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she deniessomething being wrong, it means she doesn't want to talk about it- so just hug her
24-make her feel loved
25-kiss her infront of other girls you know
26-don't lie to her
27-dont cheat on her
28-take her anywhere she wants
29-txt messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good dayat school, and how much you miss her
30-be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn'tneed you, just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you
31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movie, put your arm around her and then she willautomatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt herchin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Dont ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. Ifshes upset, comfort her
36. When people criticise her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she canlisten to the steady beat of your heart, Link your fingers togetherwhile you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her hold her in your arms as long as possible.
41. Call her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always Remind her how much you love her.
i thought i could do this, but its turning out to be even harder than i could ever imagine.
i'd give anything for you to be by my side now.
i need to be here to catch you when you fall. and i know that there's no one to catch me if i fall. its at this time when i really really need to be strong. and i can't afford to slip up, not a single time. not until all this is put behind us. so its back to the silent tears in the night, into my pillow, anywhere but before you. oh the irony. but i have to be stronger than you are. i can do this.
damn tired.
of everything.
it's been so long.
most days, i go by without thinking, without remembering
at times, a mere scent, a thought, a sudden memory, can leave me grappling with the pain of all that raw emotion.
i still read the letters. i still remember. i still play with D & G everyday. and i have not forgotten S, G, H, G, F. i wonder how MT and LT are doing.
but memories are slowly fading away. when i think about YaM, the same familiar scenes go through my mind. there is one that always appears and lingers. the thunderstorms. i remember being jerked awake by the crash of thunder in the middle of the night, lying there watching the flashes, listening to the pitter patter of the rain and feeling the wonderful peace of being warm, snug and comfortable under the covers.
strangely enough, i have not been woken up by a single thunderstorm since moving out of hall. i miss listening to the rain at night. but just as well that the thunderstorms were confined to the period of time in NUS. some stages in life are never meant to be revisited. and i don't know how it'll feel like listening to the thunder and rain without you beside.
what i really really want to tell u, but can never, is that everytime you hurt me, everytime you say something mean, everytime you neglect to keep your promises and everytime you do something that makes me realise how little i in fact mean to you, you are actually pushing me further and further away from you.
it used to be that one little thing could keep me awake with worry and pain all night, and i can't even begin to count how many times i've cried myself to sleep. because of you.
now my heart is becoming numb. i seem to be able to compartmentalize the pain and push it away somewhere where i do not have to deal with it. this is seriously tiring me out. and now when i'm so tired and empty and drained i seem to finally be able to see the truth which has been staring me in the face all this while; the truth which i'd always wanted to avoid facing up to.
my head knows exactly what is best for me, but my heart is balking at the thought of it.
someone, somewhere. give me strength. give me a direction. here, there, anywhere. i'm so utterly lost.
it all started out as a hazy notion that this might be a good goal to work towards this year... considering how slack i have been in this aspect of my life.
now after further research, i am DEFINITELY setting this as one of THE goals to strive for. can't say what it is yet... am certain i will meet with considerable ridicule and doubt, and telling others will only put more pressure on myself. yet the thought of being able to achieve it sends a delicious thrill all over me.
7 minutes.
i will do it, or die trying.
i remember how it was so difficult whenever he went away. the tears would inevitably fall, along with the feelings of emptiness and fear that i just might lose him forever. i just couldn't wait to hear that he had landed safely.
how different it is with you now. i drop you off, receive my goodbye hug, and happily get on with the rest of my life.
why?
do i not give a damn?
has being with you taught me to be too independent?
or is it just that i love you more than i need you whereas with him i needed him more than i loved him?
why is it that you insist that you love me more than i love you when i am absolutely sure that it is the other way round?
a million whys but i guess we'll never ever know for sure will we?
i hereby declare that my life, from today on, will be dedicated to Raphael, my soon-to-be car. i promise that he will be most lovingly taken care of and ensure that he will be the happiest, zippiest, shiniest, proudest and most handsome and well-kept car on the roads.
i love you already.
i wish i had the strength to.
說好和你一起流浪 失約的我獨自飛翔
窗外景物不斷的變換 提醒我背叛的心慌
說好不讓你再流淚 迷惑的我不知是錯是對
下雪街頭獨自的行走 握不住一杯溫熱的咖啡
New York Dallas Los Angeles 寂寞公路每站都下雪
想念 等候 流逝的夢 寂寞公路每吋都傷痛
Sunrise Moonshake Heartbreaker 寂寞公路每段都下雪
冷漠 激情 點煙的手 寂寞公路哪裡是盡頭it must have been about a year ago when i was obsessed over the interpretation of these lyrics. the gist of it is clear but there were phrases here and there which didn't really square with what i understood. i also remember playing it to death on repeat mode - the haunting melody lingering in my heart, in my mind, everywhere, sinking me into a deep melancholy. an undescribable mixture of guilt and sadness. i thought then that the lyrics had some sort of vague similarity to what was going on in my life. i heard it again recently. now, even the opening notes can make me tear. this song literally breaks my heart. every single word feels like it was written for me, and only me. what have i done?i am so fucking sorry.
i saw it.
3 months and 4 days after it was sent
oh how much has changed since then
if you must know,
i am smiling back at you too
but there are tears in my eyes
'all i wanted was for him to let me go... but now that he has, it hurts me more than anything else in the world'
-my blueberry nights
"It's funny how you can train for other aspects of running, but you can't train joy. It blinks and disappears, elusive as that firefly, but when you have it ...you are a different runner. I can't close without mentioning Ryan Shay, the runner who died at mile 5 of the Men's Olympic Trials marathon on Saturday. His death is so tragic and my prayers go out to his wife and his entire family. I can only imagine one consolation...that his last run held a great, sparkling handful of joy. He left this world in a blaze." - Kristin Armstrong this is why i love her.
back from phuket, which has
1) Hot chilli squid,
2) Korean pork bulgogi, and
3) Bacon and cheese flavoured Lays. and
4) Choco mint tim tams.
why, singapore, why? aren't you supposed be a food paradise?
on a happier note, cheers has recently started selling this line of korean coffee. there's a cinammon flavoured one which i absolutely love and which tastes exactly like coffee bean's cinnamon ice blended except that it isn't ice blended. and one can costs only 1.85. yum yum.
goodbye nescafe.
omg.
the muscles in my left arm are aching.
not from push-ups, not from running, not from gymming
but from holding the mike for hours on end at yesterday's ktv session.
i really constantly surprise myself...
moral dilemma. things can't go on like this indefinitely... and the whole situation is bound to explode sooner or later. but in the meantime what is the best thing to be done? be brutally honest? (which is always a difficult thing), be subtle and hope my hints get picked up? or continue with the status quo - i.e. bottle up my resentment and bitch when i can't take it anymore? either way i see it, the friendship is bound to be irrevocably changed. boo. why do things have to be like that. but then again as J said, 'dont like means dont like'. i can in all honesty say that i tried. i think there are just some people that are bound to rub me the wrong way and i shouldn't blame myself for it.
SIGH.
what to do.
Coram : Andrew Phang Boon Leong JA, V K Rajah JA and
Woo Bih Li J
Not before 2.15pm
8 Application No : SUM/1998/2007 - in S 261/2006
Applicant : The Singapore Democratic Party & 8 others
[3rd Applicant (Dr Chee Soon Juan) In Person]
Respondent : Lee Hsien Loong
(Mr Davinder Singh SC/Mr Adrian Tan Gim Hai)
(Drew & Napier LLC)
Subject Matter : Civil Procedure - Extension of time
9 Application No : SUM/1997/2007 - in S 262/2006
Applicant : The Singapore Democratic Party & 8 others
[3rd Applicant (Dr Chee Soon Juan) In Person]
Respondent : Lee Kuan Yew
(Mr Davinder Singh SC/Mr Adrian Tan Gim Hai)
(Drew & Napier LLC)
Subject Matter : As in SUM/1998/2007
Times allowed for oral argument:
A - 20 mins
R - 20 mins
[For both SUM/1998 & 1997/2007]
this was the highlight of my day.
i'm so glad i went even though the original intention was not to catch this particular appeal.
stan chart forced me to make a decision by today. if not i'd have lost my early bird + direct mailer discounts. i chose the half. dont ask me why but one major factor is that i'm quite sure that i'll have a paper on either the monday or tuesday (or worse one on each day) following the race. and well yes. i guess i did the logical thing this time round. i feel like i've let myself down somewhat though. bleh. especially knowing that some ppl are going to run 42. i just can't take the fact that other ppl, people i actually KNOW, are going to be doing 42 while i'm only doing 21. ARGH. ARGH ARGH. i'm too competitive for my own good.
now where should i start.
8pm sat night: ktv suggested as a post-dinner activity. i went yesssss! and right there and then decided to scrap all my plans to rest early that night in preparation for sunday morning's mizuno run
10pm: get msg from james saying sth to the effect that he's screwed for the run coz he's out drinking. tell him that i'm in no better state. briefly toy with the idea of not turning up but the enormity of it overwhelms me and i stash it away.
11pm: suddenly panicked when i realized that i didn't have safety pins for my number tag and that parents would be asleep when i get home so can't exactly raid their room for pins. desperately contacted james who promised to bring me some. made plans to call him the next morning when i reach TP.
330am: DAMN TIRED and cotton-wool-brained. get home, hurriedly pack all the stuff i need and try to get some sleep. briefly thought about not turning up again but subsequently managed to psych myself up for the run. psyched myself up so much that i think could only fall asleep at like ... 5+
6am: get woken up by the grooo. take a look at the rain outside and decide to give it a miss. but the guilt starts building up.
645: guiltily inform james of my intended absence and ask him to enjoy his run. dont get a reply and wonder if he's mildly pissed that i'm being such a wuss and backing out of it.
645++ guilt builds up steadily throughout the day
1115pm: james msn-s and tells me that he went back to sleep too! start feeling much happier and much less guilty. BUT also realize that if i had been disciplined and gone for the run, i wouldn't have had ANY SAFETY PINS for my number tag! wtfffff! am doubly glad now that i didn't go.
1130pm: calv makes my day. as a result of my sensational 'what have i done?' msn nick many ppl, one of whom is calv, msg to ask about it. calv directs me to blogs bitching about how badly the race was organized --> long queues at baggage deposit and collection, no one knowing where the finishing line is even, undermanned water points, muddy route and puddles all around and the congested routes.
am superbly happy now! and yes. that emotional roller coaster was all for one stupid badly-organized run.
advo is all of 21 days away yet i'm already dreading it with a ... dread that i've not known for anything else.
junwei & wife are opening up their home to us tmr! =) who'd have thought that out of all of us in hall, he'd be the first to get married. amazing stuff. and both of them look so contented together that you just can't help but feel wonderfully happy for them. but of course the hilarious groo kept worriedly asking wendy (the wife) about renovation costs + the hidden costs of owning your own place... etc at supper that night. from talking about bridge, hall gossip, mj etc we've now moved on to topics like marriage, travelling to work, owning a place, petrol prices etc and it struck me that we've really really grown up. =( . of course mervyn was his usual self, telling us about his big plans to make a fortune through poker and gambling. haha.
i wish i could get rid of this impending sense of doom that's been surrounding me for the past few days. really. everyday i open the papers and look for a report saying that WWIII has broken out / some atoll in the pacific has been submerged or what not. i know sth big is going to happen, i just don't know what, why and when. ARGH.
candice
danette
danielle
diana
fang
hanshuo
james
jieyun
joanne
mavis
melissa
ru
shan
sharon
sylvia
xiuling
xiuying
reading this made me cry because it reminds me of everything he was and everything you aren't.
some of de sweet things shared for guys to pick up n learn..
1-touch her waist
2-talk to her
3-share secrets
4-give her your jacket
5-kiss her slowly
6-hug her
7-hold her
8-laugh with her,not at her
9-invite her somewhere
10-let her be with you when you're with your friends
11-smile with her
12-take pics with her
13-pull her onto your lap
14-when she says she loves you more, deny it. fight back
15-when her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back andhug her tight so she cant get to her friends. it makes her feel loved
16-always hug her and say "i love you" when you see her
17-kiss her unexpectedly
18-hug her from behind around her waist
19-tell her shes beautiful!
20-tell her the way you feel about her!
21-Open doors for her, walk her to her car- it makes her feel protected, plusit never hurt to act like a gentleman
22-Tell her she means everything toyou, but mean it
23-if it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she deniessomething being wrong, it means she doesn't want to talk about it- so just hug her
24-make her feel loved
25-kiss her infront of other girls you know
26-don't lie to her
27-dont cheat on her
28-take her anywhere she wants
29-txt messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good dayat school, and how much you miss her
30-be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn'tneed you, just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you
31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movie, put your arm around her and then she willautomatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt herchin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Dont ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. Ifshes upset, comfort her
36. When people criticise her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she canlisten to the steady beat of your heart, Link your fingers togetherwhile you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her hold her in your arms as long as possible.
41. Call her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always Remind her how much you love her.
i thought i could do this, but its turning out to be even harder than i could ever imagine.
i'd give anything for you to be by my side now.
i need to be here to catch you when you fall. and i know that there's no one to catch me if i fall. its at this time when i really really need to be strong. and i can't afford to slip up, not a single time. not until all this is put behind us. so its back to the silent tears in the night, into my pillow, anywhere but before you. oh the irony. but i have to be stronger than you are. i can do this.
damn tired.
of everything.
it's been so long.
most days, i go by without thinking, without remembering
at times, a mere scent, a thought, a sudden memory, can leave me grappling with the pain of all that raw emotion.
i still read the letters. i still remember. i still play with D & G everyday. and i have not forgotten S, G, H, G, F. i wonder how MT and LT are doing.
but memories are slowly fading away. when i think about YaM, the same familiar scenes go through my mind. there is one that always appears and lingers. the thunderstorms. i remember being jerked awake by the crash of thunder in the middle of the night, lying there watching the flashes, listening to the pitter patter of the rain and feeling the wonderful peace of being warm, snug and comfortable under the covers.
strangely enough, i have not been woken up by a single thunderstorm since moving out of hall. i miss listening to the rain at night. but just as well that the thunderstorms were confined to the period of time in NUS. some stages in life are never meant to be revisited. and i don't know how it'll feel like listening to the thunder and rain without you beside.
what i really really want to tell u, but can never, is that everytime you hurt me, everytime you say something mean, everytime you neglect to keep your promises and everytime you do something that makes me realise how little i in fact mean to you, you are actually pushing me further and further away from you.
it used to be that one little thing could keep me awake with worry and pain all night, and i can't even begin to count how many times i've cried myself to sleep. because of you.
now my heart is becoming numb. i seem to be able to compartmentalize the pain and push it away somewhere where i do not have to deal with it. this is seriously tiring me out. and now when i'm so tired and empty and drained i seem to finally be able to see the truth which has been staring me in the face all this while; the truth which i'd always wanted to avoid facing up to.
my head knows exactly what is best for me, but my heart is balking at the thought of it.
someone, somewhere. give me strength. give me a direction. here, there, anywhere. i'm so utterly lost.
it all started out as a hazy notion that this might be a good goal to work towards this year... considering how slack i have been in this aspect of my life.
now after further research, i am DEFINITELY setting this as one of THE goals to strive for. can't say what it is yet... am certain i will meet with considerable ridicule and doubt, and telling others will only put more pressure on myself. yet the thought of being able to achieve it sends a delicious thrill all over me.
7 minutes.
i will do it, or die trying.
i remember how it was so difficult whenever he went away. the tears would inevitably fall, along with the feelings of emptiness and fear that i just might lose him forever. i just couldn't wait to hear that he had landed safely.
how different it is with you now. i drop you off, receive my goodbye hug, and happily get on with the rest of my life.
why?
do i not give a damn?
has being with you taught me to be too independent?
or is it just that i love you more than i need you whereas with him i needed him more than i loved him?
why is it that you insist that you love me more than i love you when i am absolutely sure that it is the other way round?
a million whys but i guess we'll never ever know for sure will we?
i hereby declare that my life, from today on, will be dedicated to Raphael, my soon-to-be car. i promise that he will be most lovingly taken care of and ensure that he will be the happiest, zippiest, shiniest, proudest and most handsome and well-kept car on the roads.
i love you already.
i wish i had the strength to.
說好和你一起流浪 失約的我獨自飛翔
窗外景物不斷的變換 提醒我背叛的心慌
說好不讓你再流淚 迷惑的我不知是錯是對
下雪街頭獨自的行走 握不住一杯溫熱的咖啡
New York Dallas Los Angeles 寂寞公路每站都下雪
想念 等候 流逝的夢 寂寞公路每吋都傷痛
Sunrise Moonshake Heartbreaker 寂寞公路每段都下雪
冷漠 激情 點煙的手 寂寞公路哪裡是盡頭it must have been about a year ago when i was obsessed over the interpretation of these lyrics. the gist of it is clear but there were phrases here and there which didn't really square with what i understood. i also remember playing it to death on repeat mode - the haunting melody lingering in my heart, in my mind, everywhere, sinking me into a deep melancholy. an undescribable mixture of guilt and sadness. i thought then that the lyrics had some sort of vague similarity to what was going on in my life. i heard it again recently. now, even the opening notes can make me tear. this song literally breaks my heart. every single word feels like it was written for me, and only me. what have i done?i am so fucking sorry.
i saw it.
3 months and 4 days after it was sent
oh how much has changed since then
if you must know,
i am smiling back at you too
but there are tears in my eyes
'all i wanted was for him to let me go... but now that he has, it hurts me more than anything else in the world'
-my blueberry nights
"It's funny how you can train for other aspects of running, but you can't train joy. It blinks and disappears, elusive as that firefly, but when you have it ...you are a different runner. I can't close without mentioning Ryan Shay, the runner who died at mile 5 of the Men's Olympic Trials marathon on Saturday. His death is so tragic and my prayers go out to his wife and his entire family. I can only imagine one consolation...that his last run held a great, sparkling handful of joy. He left this world in a blaze." - Kristin Armstrong this is why i love her.
back from phuket, which has
1) Hot chilli squid,
2) Korean pork bulgogi, and
3) Bacon and cheese flavoured Lays. and
4) Choco mint tim tams.
why, singapore, why? aren't you supposed be a food paradise?
on a happier note, cheers has recently started selling this line of korean coffee. there's a cinammon flavoured one which i absolutely love and which tastes exactly like coffee bean's cinnamon ice blended except that it isn't ice blended. and one can costs only 1.85. yum yum.
goodbye nescafe.
omg.
the muscles in my left arm are aching.
not from push-ups, not from running, not from gymming
but from holding the mike for hours on end at yesterday's ktv session.
i really constantly surprise myself...
moral dilemma. things can't go on like this indefinitely... and the whole situation is bound to explode sooner or later. but in the meantime what is the best thing to be done? be brutally honest? (which is always a difficult thing), be subtle and hope my hints get picked up? or continue with the status quo - i.e. bottle up my resentment and bitch when i can't take it anymore? either way i see it, the friendship is bound to be irrevocably changed. boo. why do things have to be like that. but then again as J said, 'dont like means dont like'. i can in all honesty say that i tried. i think there are just some people that are bound to rub me the wrong way and i shouldn't blame myself for it.
SIGH.
what to do.
Coram : Andrew Phang Boon Leong JA, V K Rajah JA and
Woo Bih Li J
Not before 2.15pm
8 Application No : SUM/1998/2007 - in S 261/2006
Applicant : The Singapore Democratic Party & 8 others
[3rd Applicant (Dr Chee Soon Juan) In Person]
Respondent : Lee Hsien Loong
(Mr Davinder Singh SC/Mr Adrian Tan Gim Hai)
(Drew & Napier LLC)
Subject Matter : Civil Procedure - Extension of time
9 Application No : SUM/1997/2007 - in S 262/2006
Applicant : The Singapore Democratic Party & 8 others
[3rd Applicant (Dr Chee Soon Juan) In Person]
Respondent : Lee Kuan Yew
(Mr Davinder Singh SC/Mr Adrian Tan Gim Hai)
(Drew & Napier LLC)
Subject Matter : As in SUM/1998/2007
Times allowed for oral argument:
A - 20 mins
R - 20 mins
[For both SUM/1998 & 1997/2007]
this was the highlight of my day.
i'm so glad i went even though the original intention was not to catch this particular appeal.
stan chart forced me to make a decision by today. if not i'd have lost my early bird + direct mailer discounts. i chose the half. dont ask me why but one major factor is that i'm quite sure that i'll have a paper on either the monday or tuesday (or worse one on each day) following the race. and well yes. i guess i did the logical thing this time round. i feel like i've let myself down somewhat though. bleh. especially knowing that some ppl are going to run 42. i just can't take the fact that other ppl, people i actually KNOW, are going to be doing 42 while i'm only doing 21. ARGH. ARGH ARGH. i'm too competitive for my own good.
now where should i start.
8pm sat night: ktv suggested as a post-dinner activity. i went yesssss! and right there and then decided to scrap all my plans to rest early that night in preparation for sunday morning's mizuno run
10pm: get msg from james saying sth to the effect that he's screwed for the run coz he's out drinking. tell him that i'm in no better state. briefly toy with the idea of not turning up but the enormity of it overwhelms me and i stash it away.
11pm: suddenly panicked when i realized that i didn't have safety pins for my number tag and that parents would be asleep when i get home so can't exactly raid their room for pins. desperately contacted james who promised to bring me some. made plans to call him the next morning when i reach TP.
330am: DAMN TIRED and cotton-wool-brained. get home, hurriedly pack all the stuff i need and try to get some sleep. briefly thought about not turning up again but subsequently managed to psych myself up for the run. psyched myself up so much that i think could only fall asleep at like ... 5+
6am: get woken up by the grooo. take a look at the rain outside and decide to give it a miss. but the guilt starts building up.
645: guiltily inform james of my intended absence and ask him to enjoy his run. dont get a reply and wonder if he's mildly pissed that i'm being such a wuss and backing out of it.
645++ guilt builds up steadily throughout the day
1115pm: james msn-s and tells me that he went back to sleep too! start feeling much happier and much less guilty. BUT also realize that if i had been disciplined and gone for the run, i wouldn't have had ANY SAFETY PINS for my number tag! wtfffff! am doubly glad now that i didn't go.
1130pm: calv makes my day. as a result of my sensational 'what have i done?' msn nick many ppl, one of whom is calv, msg to ask about it. calv directs me to blogs bitching about how badly the race was organized --> long queues at baggage deposit and collection, no one knowing where the finishing line is even, undermanned water points, muddy route and puddles all around and the congested routes.
am superbly happy now! and yes. that emotional roller coaster was all for one stupid badly-organized run.
advo is all of 21 days away yet i'm already dreading it with a ... dread that i've not known for anything else.
junwei & wife are opening up their home to us tmr! =) who'd have thought that out of all of us in hall, he'd be the first to get married. amazing stuff. and both of them look so contented together that you just can't help but feel wonderfully happy for them. but of course the hilarious groo kept worriedly asking wendy (the wife) about renovation costs + the hidden costs of owning your own place... etc at supper that night. from talking about bridge, hall gossip, mj etc we've now moved on to topics like marriage, travelling to work, owning a place, petrol prices etc and it struck me that we've really really grown up. =( . of course mervyn was his usual self, telling us about his big plans to make a fortune through poker and gambling. haha.
i wish i could get rid of this impending sense of doom that's been surrounding me for the past few days. really. everyday i open the papers and look for a report saying that WWIII has broken out / some atoll in the pacific has been submerged or what not. i know sth big is going to happen, i just don't know what, why and when. ARGH.