well how do i start. i went back there again today and everything felt so right. it's just like i'd never left. even the receptionist, usually black-faced, was happily chatting away to me. to see the familiar rooms, library, cubicles, people, even the view again .. amazing.
and
i had a nice talk with the ex-boss (which fang just HAD to interrupt.. haha), the result of which is that
i think
i might just, on pupillage application day, have ready only ONE cover letter, ONE CV, ONE copy of my results / testimonials etc.
do i dare? do i have sufficient faith in myself, sufficient trust in him and them such that i'll only need to apply to one place? do i dare bank all my hopes and dreams and future and career on them? i think i do. and i think one application is all i'll be making.
the thought is so wondrously delightfully scary. but since i've already done my best (well maybe not consciously) during that one month, i should just leave the rest to faith and fate. may they carry me through the next week.
internships are doing me a whole lot of good. really. i'm not as daunted by the future as before now that i know that work is not as horrible as i once imagined it would be. i'm actually looking forward starting yr 4, learning new stuff and finally doing my pupillage, plc, getting retained (hopefully), my own cubicle and all that. compare all this to the depressed pessimistic escapist me a few months ago. no prizes for guessing the firm which awoke this sudden yearning in me. i can even imagine doing uncontested PTCs by myself 2 years down the road without getting clammy hands and breaking into a cold sweat. and of course, striding down the long spacious gleaming corridors, impeccable in black and white, files in my arms, waiting on the couches outside the chambers making small talk and most importantly, glowing with the knowledge that i am, finally, one of them. that i belong. to one of the most elite professions around. what a glorious thought.
i've just to my horror discovered that due to the new semester starting 1 week late, we will end 1 week late as well which means that stan chart will now be right smack in the middle of exams. esp since i'm planning to take conflicts, the exam for which is on 8th dec.
congratulations to myself. i can foresee that i'm going to get royally screwed.
a chance meeting on the train in the morning which just brightened up my entire day. an unexpected email from someone, and i can't stop smiling inside. it's amazing how some people and places manage to affect your life and touch you in such a way even though you've been there for only such a short while. and i'm beginning to feel like i know that's where i want to be. it's where i want to learn, grow up and mature, among the wonderfully sincere and fun friends i've made and receiving the highest standard of care and guidance. but i can't keep relying much longer on representations alone. i need to know. for sure. argh. 3rd july please come quick!
no i have not disappeared
yes i've still been waking up at 6am and running religiously.
yes internship has been great so far. or should i say was great? i dunno. sometimes after you've gone thru the best internship and met the best ppl ever, everywhere else just pales in comparison. that's why sometimes i feel miserable here. though i know very well that i'd have liked this place if it had been my first place. too bad.. my heart is taken.
yes i'm now the proud owner of a MACBOOK PRO! =)
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jieyun
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sharon
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xiuying
well how do i start. i went back there again today and everything felt so right. it's just like i'd never left. even the receptionist, usually black-faced, was happily chatting away to me. to see the familiar rooms, library, cubicles, people, even the view again .. amazing.
and
i had a nice talk with the ex-boss (which fang just HAD to interrupt.. haha), the result of which is that
i think
i might just, on pupillage application day, have ready only ONE cover letter, ONE CV, ONE copy of my results / testimonials etc.
do i dare? do i have sufficient faith in myself, sufficient trust in him and them such that i'll only need to apply to one place? do i dare bank all my hopes and dreams and future and career on them? i think i do. and i think one application is all i'll be making.
the thought is so wondrously delightfully scary. but since i've already done my best (well maybe not consciously) during that one month, i should just leave the rest to faith and fate. may they carry me through the next week.
internships are doing me a whole lot of good. really. i'm not as daunted by the future as before now that i know that work is not as horrible as i once imagined it would be. i'm actually looking forward starting yr 4, learning new stuff and finally doing my pupillage, plc, getting retained (hopefully), my own cubicle and all that. compare all this to the depressed pessimistic escapist me a few months ago. no prizes for guessing the firm which awoke this sudden yearning in me. i can even imagine doing uncontested PTCs by myself 2 years down the road without getting clammy hands and breaking into a cold sweat. and of course, striding down the long spacious gleaming corridors, impeccable in black and white, files in my arms, waiting on the couches outside the chambers making small talk and most importantly, glowing with the knowledge that i am, finally, one of them. that i belong. to one of the most elite professions around. what a glorious thought.
i've just to my horror discovered that due to the new semester starting 1 week late, we will end 1 week late as well which means that stan chart will now be right smack in the middle of exams. esp since i'm planning to take conflicts, the exam for which is on 8th dec.
congratulations to myself. i can foresee that i'm going to get royally screwed.
a chance meeting on the train in the morning which just brightened up my entire day. an unexpected email from someone, and i can't stop smiling inside. it's amazing how some people and places manage to affect your life and touch you in such a way even though you've been there for only such a short while. and i'm beginning to feel like i know that's where i want to be. it's where i want to learn, grow up and mature, among the wonderfully sincere and fun friends i've made and receiving the highest standard of care and guidance. but i can't keep relying much longer on representations alone. i need to know. for sure. argh. 3rd july please come quick!
no i have not disappeared
yes i've still been waking up at 6am and running religiously.
yes internship has been great so far. or should i say was great? i dunno. sometimes after you've gone thru the best internship and met the best ppl ever, everywhere else just pales in comparison. that's why sometimes i feel miserable here. though i know very well that i'd have liked this place if it had been my first place. too bad.. my heart is taken.
yes i'm now the proud owner of a MACBOOK PRO! =)